My (one and a half) college years haven't treated me that well, but I don't think there's anyone to blame for that.
People say that peaking means that you're in the prime of your life, that everything from there will just be downhill. For a while, I believed that I peaked in high school--I fell more and more into self-loath every time I thought that. How could the prime of my life be during high school? Was I doomed to have a terrible life starting from college?
But I was blinded--I used "peaking" as an excuse to find comfort in mediocrity. I learned to settle for less than I wanted, because I thought that I deserved nothing more than that.
However, taking some time off for myself, removing myself from the world actually grounded me. Yeah, maybe I peaked in high school, but that doesn't mean that I will only have one peak in my life. There are so many mountains to climb; there is no way in hell that there aren't more peaks, and maybe the next peak will be higher than the next. I just have to learn to cross the valleys, and not settle in them because the next trek seems steeper and longer.
Change is constant. And although there are uncertainties lying in the future, we have to learn how to embrace them. It's so easy to just sit down and settle for the now, but tomorrow holds so many adventures.
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